smile, till it hurts

because now, i understand how you felt
i'm sorry to have put you through all those things.



life would be so much easier if we receive as much as we give





let's not make it complicated

power of the mind

overthinking gets you nowhere. 

yet a tiny part of me wished that it wasn't just my hallucination

should i go straight to work or study overseas if i can't get into a local uni? 

happy christmas! :)

i'm surprised its only been about 2 months++ since my last post, kinda felt like i haven't been in here for almost half a year xD

it's christmas eve but it sure doesn't feel like it.. i mean, christmas to me is like another public holiday but it's a big one with decorations everywhere and christmas songs blasting throughout the malls. Oh, and of course its my dad's birthday :D
what's christmas to you?

i feel guilty i haven't started on any projects and assignments yet but i guess i can say that i've been spending quality time with my family. so i guess it's worth it right? :)
and met up with a few friends whom i haven't seen in a reallyyyy long time, but there're still more to meet up with which i haven't got the time to currently :l 2 weeks isn't enough to do much..




was at USS with the family yesterday. Their first time there. We kinda conspired to get my mom to ride the revenge of the mummy coaster and she wanted to strangle me when she came out because she said she was scared to death. My brother said that she was screaming throughout the ride hahahaha like even when the coaster came to a halt and the evil guy was talking she was still screaming HAHA. (i was waiting outside and looking after our bags)






taken during the family christmas party last week :)




my teammate gave this to me for christmas, its a stitch! with white ears hahaha her mom made it and she also gave me a stitch pen and 3 holographic guitar picks hahaha cool as hell 8D

gahhh school's starting soon i'm so not excited.
i keep feeling like i've not enough sleep these days :S
ah well.

alright my laptop's dying so i guess i shall end here. Merry Christmas! :)

worth the fall

Sometimes, you just need someone who's got your back. ;)

Distance

The sun is filling up the room, and i can hear you dreaming
do you feel the way i do, right now?
I wish we would just give up, cause the best part is falling
call it anything but love


And i will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
and how long can we keep this up, up, up?


Please don't stand so close to me, i'm having trouble breathing
I'm afraid of what you'll see, right now
I'll give you everything i am, all my broken heartbeats
until i know you'll understand


And i will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
And how long can we keep this up, up, up?


And i keep waiting for you to take me
You keep waiting to save what we have


So i'll make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
and how long can we keep this up, up, up?


Make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long till we call this love, love, love?

when giving up isn't an option

first week of school has already been mentally draining and physically tiring.

commitments = stress

commitment to school
commitment to studies
commitment to assignments
commitment to family
commitment to friends
commitment to trainings
commitment to competitions


okay but i'm counted lucky cause at least i don't have to work during the school term :)


first thing my mom asked me about today when i got home was "how's your results?"
so i told her i only got back 2 test papers out of 3 and she was like "no, i meant your GPA"
hahaha kanchiong spider sia. the semester hasn't even ended yet..

and sorry to disappoint you mom but i don't think i'm able to live up to your expectations this time but i hope you know that i'm trying my hardest to cope with everything right now

i've never bothered so much about school before. i guess turning 18 isn't as great as it seems after all.

warm bodies cold hearts

it's been insanely warm these days (and nights) and i'm not usually the type to complain about the heat..

so it's the end of the first week of holidays, one more week to go it's so weird i actually miss school days hahaha okay or maybe i'm just feeling lonely

really miss the anderson people haha supposed to meet up with the clique tomorrow but majority's not free so i guess i'll have to wait :( however the july-august period's gonna be packed like hell projects assignments performance competition(s)
it's okay, i can do this :)

i hope :X




i miss the kids at pebble ):


classmates :)